it’s it’s it’s….JOO-RAI! :) July 5, 2009

It’s finally July! I got my regents back, and I didn’t do so well on them, but oh well. I got a 59 on my Physics (yikes lol), a 77 on my Italian, and an 84 on my English. I’m rather please, haha I’ve decided to capitalize everything now…because I’m like that! I don’t know, argh. My mom signed me up for a reading class that is only five weeks long, and once a week, so it’s not that bad. It’s every Monday and since tomorrow’s Monday…well, I haven’t started doing my homework yet.

Also, I lost my job this summer, the one where I work as a camp counselor at a kids day camp every year. I didn’t go to either of the two required orientations, so my boss said I couldn’t work Luckily, I can work next summer, since I’ve worked at the camp before. Just not this time…which kind of sucks, since I need the money and I was JUST about to get $8 per hour. I work ten hours every day, and eventually the cash adds up. Don’t ask me why I didn’t go to orientation…too embarrassing, even though it totally wasn’t my fault (was my sister’s, I swear). But I think the thing that bothers me the most about not working at the camp this summer is that I promised my friend that I would work there this time, and she wasn’t going to. And I was going to be in her group…but she’s alone! She’s pretty pissed at me I feel really bad about her having to work with no point in really working (except for the $$$, but that’s beside the point). As for me, my boss (who’s a pretty chill guy) felt bad and he hooked my sister and I up at another place to set up some stuff. The lady in charge called me and wasn’t too specific…but whatever. At least it’ll be something I can do this summer – I have been so BORED. I will be starting that job tomorrow. The hours will be shorter, and I’m actually not even sure if I’m going to be paid. It might just be volunteer work, lol.

I also haven’t started working on my portfolio, which I know I totally need to. I’ve contacted SNEEZE about this, but she hasn’t started setting up the kiln yet. So I’ll talk to her about this…SOON, I hope. I realllyreallyreallyx342041 need to start this. Like OD Speaking of volunteer work, I’ve been busy hunting down lots of it. I hope I get through to some people about working for them, because that will look good on my resume also! And I think some is required for college. Oh, the things I have to do before I graduate. I wish I could just press forward and skip to a life of success, cash, and happiness. But of course that would be cheating. And it would find a way to bite me back in the ass. Because karma is no doubt obviously a bitch. I need a cupcake.

So I’m done updating this sad blog (but I still love writing it <3) and pouring out my emotions. I’ll find another way to deal with my stress. But in the meantime, this will have to do. I can’t believe it’s July…time is going way too fucking fast. I hope I don’t cry. BUT I’M NOT EMO, I SWEAR

gah! June 17, 2009

holy shit, again i skip another month! meaning that i skipped may ahah. aka mah brinklesday

but it’s june now…and school ended two days ago! (monday), therefore finals have ended and regents have started. i have english regents (pts 1 + 2) to take as well as italian and physics. i took the pt 1 for english today, and the second tmrw. i’m kinda scared…though i think i did okay today. yes! i know for sure that i’m not ready for either italian nor physics – both of which are next week. but one thing is definite…JUNIOR YEAR IS FUCKING OVER! which means…that i slave away to my growing (not so much) portfolio over the summer, i make pretty, and it comes out like a gorgeous third child hopefully by somewhere in fall/earlyearlyearly winter of senior year. even worse, i still have no idea which college i want to go to, even though i’m open to pretty much anywhere that would take me…COMMUNITY COLLEGE! <3 lmao jpjp. but my mom wants me to go to SYRACUSE <–one of the many SUNYs. it’s upstate, meaning that it’s not in the city (manhattan, etc) but that’s okay. she wants me to major in ecology or something. i want to go into sculpture though, but the major downside would be the difficulty of making a living off of sculpting. apparently, sculpture’s brother (or sister, whatever) architecture is more successful…but the involvement of physics! (jesus christ) and the extreme years and tests that i would have to sacrifice to get a degree, etc. totally not my road. so my mom suggested landscape architecture, which would include the design of gardens and public areas, i suppose. which isn’t half bad, because i could throw some of my sculptures in the park and whatnot. diggin’ it oh, and the major in ecology would have some influence on my knowledge in placement of wildlife in the gardens…<–um, okay. i figure that my biology grades would totally fail in majoring in ecology, but if my mother has that kind of hope…whatever. i have three future occupations: 1) sculptor/landscape architect (??) 2) starbucks barista (think about all the coffee on discount! <333 like zomg haha) and 3) HOBO…i think the latter is a win.

and so, i haven’t done that much in the times that have passed…okay so maybe a bit. i’ll try to sum it up in as few words as possible. or even better, another list!

1) went to the YOUTUBE downloaded event in manhattan. loved it. can’t stop bragging about it hahaha. met SMOSH, MICHAEL BUCKLEY, KEVJUMBA, and many others. am now currently following all of them on twitter. /purlywhirls! hook me up…

2) celebrated my birthday with my sister’s friends, because CURLS and SNEEZE ( lol, they’re not my only friends, just closest) were “out of town.” wasn’t bad, as my sister’s friends are pretty awesome. we saw STAR TREK which was also pretty awesome. that was the second time i’d seen it got some nice presents, too (<3)

3) attended the ASTHMA WALK in manhattan (yeah alright, i live in manhattan hahah <–not bragging! just honesty. swear ;D) with my mom and our neighbor. was pretty interesting, except didn’t walk all the way. they’re more lazy than i am, lol

4) just stepped on a thumbtack. it was terrible, hahha.

and so yeah, i think i’ve pretty much covered everything! and as for news to come, i’ve got all those regents coming up (meaning tomorrow and those next week), my cousin’s graduation to attend tomorrow night, my other cousin’s wedding to attend on saturday afternoon, some reading class starting next week, and work (as camp counselor again!) at this horrid camp. so yeah, i’m stock full of shit for the next few months and so. will be constantly updating through twitter, so if i don’t write (love how i’m pretending that people actually read this lolol) follow me on twitter. i feel like i’m forgetting something, can’t remember what…oh well. i’m DONE!

ah it’s been too long :( half a semester already!! April 16, 2009

soo, speaking of which…MIDTERMS JUST ENDED!! all of which i failed. but the best part was that we have a week and a half long break aka spring break! and here i am, halfway through that break (less than four days left!!) and i haven’t done a damn thing. i got my SAT scores back (1559 haha), which my mom isn’t too pleased about, so i was supposed to use this free time to study for my second SAT. but i’m doing english homework! and procrastinating. i asked CURLS and SNEEZE if we could chill, but CURLS never answered to either of us. errr D; UPDATE : like, twenty minutes later. she just did she was on a college trip, visiting colleges and such and will be free tomorrow! yayy! now i won’t be at home bored…hahah

so anyway, i’ve developed a large obsession with the band PETER BJORN AND JOHN, only starting wayyy back when i was semi stalking that guy i mentioned in a past entry. i noticed that he set his AIM status to his current iTunes song, so i thought OMG i want to listen to all the songs he listens to! (because i’m sad, i know). so that current song just happened to be YOUNG FOLKS by P B AND J.  so i found the music video on youtube and i absolutely loved it. i then downloaded it and added it to my playlist. and i thought that was it. over. ….ahh, but no. i also happened to read these book series called PRETTY LITTLE LIARS by SARA SHEPARD, and i became obsessed with one of the main characters aria montgomery, but more or less with the book. and then i went to the book’s website and found all of the main characters on facebook, then continued to add them to my friends on FB. hahaha, now i have motivated my entire life towards dressing like aria montgomery, listening to aria montgomery’s favorite music, acting like aria (not a success), and etc. YES, i will say it again, i’m an ultimately sad person. but one of aria’s favorite bands are P B AND J, and since i already held a mini kinship with it, i added myself to their mailing list so i get constant updates on whatever. as a matter of fact, i downloaded tons of aria’s music and made a new playlist on iTunes, which i am now currently listening to. and P B and J’s new album LIVING THING. unfortunately, i have the CD, but i lost the cover to it. i’ve been searching frantically, with no success. ARGH D;

but enough about new bands and such. multiple SNL episodes have passed by and they have all been quite excellent. the recent one was with host ZAC EFRON (movie 17 AGAIN, like OMG. hahhah xD) with musical guest YEAH YEAH YEAHS. heart them! next week is supposed to be ‘BEST OF AMY POEHLER’ kind of thing, so i hope that will be fun unfortunately, i haven’t been able to catch her new show PARKS AND RECREATION, but it’s on tonight, so maybe i’ll go watch it! if my mom doesn’t jump down my ass.

well, i should probably finish my english homework and other homeworks, though this has been much too fun…lmao.

AND I HAVEN”T WRITTEN SINCE FEBRUARY! I COMPLETELY SKIPPED MARCH! jesus. OCD. lolol. it makes sense, i suppose. just because march was a hella stressful month. wait until senior year! college apps. ahhh, i don’t want to think about it. then it’s college. my whole life is flashing before my eyes! or whatever the thing is. but i promise i will still be here, writing. decently. at least once a month. yes?

it’s been a while! February 10, 2009

ah, it’s a new semester. and boy do i have a lot of things to say.

so i got switched out of my math teacher’s class and into a new one, which is alright. i’ll definitely miss my friends in my old math class, but i have friends in the new one, horrah! and my sculpture teacher went on a sabbatical and now we have a new one. unfortunately, we’ll actually have to do work now, coz before we didn’t do anything lol. hm, what else…my computer broke and now i’m using my mom’s mini one. as a matter of fact, i’m using it right now and i can’t see a damn thing. well, enough to acknowledge what little i am writing. i have concluded that my english teacher hates me because i keep falling asleep in his class. but it’s so hard not to, does he not understand that? we’re reading frankenstein by mary shelley btw. good stuff. so far. i’m only on page 31 (first page of chapter one, haha). i’m supposed to read up to chapter four by tomorrow. ah well, i’ll do it during lunch. oh, as for knitting, i finished that devil/kitty hat in that book – i made a devil one for myself, and then i made another for my sister (a kitty one). now i’m making the socks pattern called PIPPI KNEESTOCKINGS by THERESA V. STENERSEN. i’ve done like, a small version of one sock. which i’m not done with, lmao. got a long way to go. i’m taking the SATs next month! so scared. and i’m supposed to write a term paper by next month as well. ahh, damn. i’ll be glad when i get past college apps.

oh, as for SNL…BRADLEY COOPER was on! he was pretty entertaining, though i don’t know any movies he’s been in except for the oh so recent HE”S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU. the musical guest the past week was JASON MRAZ. heart that man. as for next week, it’s ALEC BALDWIN (when is it not him? lmao ) and the musical guests are THE JONAS BROTHERS. good god. i’ll have fun watching that….they were at the grammy’s also, which i believe now to be a complete waste of time. the oscars > the grammy’s, always.

i gotta finish knitting my sock, and then maybe i’ll take pictures of my finished knittnig projects and put ‘em up. but another time! coz my new mini computer actually has a camera built in this time. horrah! so…ttfn!

on edge. January 19, 2009

ahh, i don’t have much to say, except…OBAMA’s getting inaugurated on tuesday! finals are over as well – i got my italian final back already and i got an 89.5 i hope i passed all my others. it’s kind of a hard bet with my math, physics, and us history. i took the psats again this saturday, i pretty much f’d up on it..ahhh oh boy. i also still have homework that is due on tuesday – we get monday/tomorrow off because of MLK day. also, SNL recently had an episode with NEIL PATRICK HARRIS as host (musical guest TAYLOR SWIFT), they mentioned the show he used to be on a long time ago (’89 – ‘93) called DOOGIE HOWSER, MD. i can’t stop watching the reruns on imdb.com. totally addictive, haha. yesterday’s show was hosted by ROSARIO DAWSON, and the musical guest was the band FLEET FOXES. i expected better of ROSARIO (mimi from RENT! <33), but SNL most definitely have had their bad times and good times. next week’s a rerun with JOHN MALKOVICH and TI. haha what fun.

i knitted a hat! thanks to the sewing class i was unsure to attend before. but it’s not that bad, considering that there are only four classes, each an hour and a half long. also, once a week (being monday), and not far from where i live. it uses the rib stitch and is like a beanie hat. the pattern is in a book called STITCH N’ BITCH – THE KNITTER’S HANDBOOK by DEBBIE STOLLER. it is the one called ‘HOT HEAD‘, by ALEX ZORN. i chose my own different colors, though. if i get a chance to take a picture of it, i’ll put it up. i’m going to make another hat in the book called ‘ADULTS-ONLY DEVIL HAT AND OFFICIAL KITTYVILLE HAT‘, by KITTY SCHMIDT. it looks hard but fun nevertheless.

i’m going to start doing my homework now – i have to write a report for sculpture class. yippeee.

YAY HAPPY NEW YEAR! reppin’ 2009 :D January 1, 2009

and so, it is a new year. 2009! how exciting. and i’m spending my first few minutes of it (like, after i woke up from 3 AM last night, so i guess not really, but whatever) doing my homework. UGH. way to go back into reality, huh? and i was really bored, so i decided to talk for a bit. then i realized i can’t spill much of what happened unless i mention brand names. ahh. well, i didn’t do much the past few days. i spent all of it with my mom . CURSE and SNEEZE are doing their own things, but i texted happy new year to them and they texted back saying the same. i spent my new year watching 27 DRESSES and went out at around 12:30 to go walk my dog with my sister, who met up with some random senior at our school. apparently, he’s “annoying” and “small”. he went to our middle school as well. anyway, i went to numerous things with my mother over the past few days. i went to some gallery in a different borough for my italian class project, to the library (oh what fun) and then to a certain toy store where i got a certain designer toy. i’m too lazy to come up with fun names for them, lol. i also went to a small theater to watch a play about the irish partaking in world war two. with atom bombs and probability. <-ew math. and science.

i suppose i should go back to finishing my homework. YAY it’s 2009. mad exciting :D and OBAMA will be in office by the 20th! BUSH has like, 19 days until his ass gets kicked out of the white house. thank you jesus.

my mom’s signed me up for this knitting class and the required materials for the class should alone be $60. i can’t spend any more money!! my sister has taken nearly $200 bucks from my bank account, and i also have to take out about $100 so i can pay back my mom for the $40 i used to spend on my friend (which was a complete waste, she wasn’t even grateful), then another $25 because i had agreed to give my sister a christmas present (probably a silly idea by now) and she got these plastic strips that are “protecting” her phone. um. yeah. then my mom gave my jacket to my grandma and told her that she was to charge me $5 for every button to sew onto my jacket. there was three. oh, but then there was the loop to hang my jacket up. that’s broken too! i suppose we have to fix it. another $5. this HAS to mean that i’m not paying for some dinner which was the original idea for me to pay back our grandmother. i want to save my money. so if i’m not going to college, i’m running away to italy. i can’t wait to get away from this madhouse. my mom doesn’t even have any $$ saved for my sister and i to get into college. she must be fucking crazy. what happened to all the $1000 my grandmother gave us each for our birthdays? “donated away” to my mom’s ridiculously collection of designer handbags? oh yeah, there’s coach, kate spade, prada, the works. she doesn’t even use all of them. and then she gives them away. oh, how lovely. this is exactly why i’m running away to italy. if she thinks i can get a scholarship into college without ANY money at all, she must be fucking insane. even I”M saving my bank account $$ for college. because there’s no freakin’ way i’m getting into college with a scholarship. my grades are really bad. and yes, it is all my fault. but i wasn’t aware. about all this $0. and she still wants to spend $$ on pointless things. like my guitar lessons. because i’ll “thank her in the future”. i don’t even like guitar. and i’ve been forced to take it since i was six years old. and she COMPLAINS how much money it is, how much it’s costing her. and then i tell her that i don’t even like it, why is she spending $$ on me for it then? and then she says, “oh, because i want to torture you.” WHAT THE FUCK. there is sometimes also, “i don’t want you to be doing nothing on a friday (the day my lessons are).” um. i can hang out with friends. it’s not like i see them all the time anymore.  besides, i think the money i’ll be spending when i’m with them will be WAY LESS then the cash you spend on me every week for HALF A FUCKING HOUR. it’s been like, ten years. of guitar class. and they’re wasted. i don’t care, i’m not picking up a guitar in my future. and i haven’t really even learned anything. it’s a complete waste of timee (though i must have said it quite often). but she still “wants to torture me”, and thinks that i will “thank her in the future”. jesus christ.

i really need to finish homework now. i ttyl! when i’m gone from this godforsaken house.

back from skiing. December 28, 2008

well, i tried snowboarding. that fucking hurt. i’m aching all over, and i didn’t even try. i went skiing the first day i arrived at destination and then i went to a different slope. i tried snowboarding there and everything was awful. i even took the lessons the lodge provided and i failed at that too, haahha. but i suppose it was worth it. it was still quite fun. but i woke up the next day (this morning) and my body was like JFDOIEJFOE. and it still is! i didn’t even go to the mountains today. our hired driver (because my parents are too cranky to drive us all around) drove us to several outlets on the way back home and that wasn’t so bad. i drank a lot of coffee on the trip and saw THE TALE OF DESPERAUX the first night. it was really cute. i love mice/rats. hence my weblog name.

well, i should start studying for my SATs, as i have not yet started. and…i’m too lazy. i want to watch a movie. except. SNL starts in an hour. and my sister’s banging on the piano. BLAGH. alright, i ttyl! byee.

SKI TRIP TMRW! :D December 24, 2008

so, i’m going skiing tomorrow. and it’s gonna be fun. today’s the first day of break. and it’s like, almost over. i failed my math test. really badly. and it’s so weird. because i studied a LOT. and i also thought i did really well, too. ah well.

so anyway. i’m leaving tomorrow and it’s for three days. i can’t wait. i also got a new phone! it’s mad fun, lol. ahhh, i don’t ever want this vacation to end. it’s too much fun. i ate a lot of chocolate yesterday too, hahaha.

ohh i went ice skating with SNEEZE yesterday! it was fun, though the skate rink people were really mean to us, because we didn’t have a lock and they were making us pay for a locker, etc. we’re going somewhere else next time. the rink was also near CURSE’S place, so we asked her to come eat dinner with us, but DAKAWU was asleep on her couch and her parents wanted her help with christmas decor. ahh also, CURSE and DAKAWU are going on a trip together for three days, and they’re leaving the 26th. and SNEEZE went up to her countryhouse this morning and she’s supposed to be back the 26th. and i’m either coming back the 27th or 28th. wow, we run together well, no?

well, i must finish packing. my mom’s making my sister and i go see some concert at FLAHNAGAY tonight at like, 6. i don’t understand why…

t000dl35!

winter vacation. THREE MORE DAYS! :D December 21, 2008

well, technically…today’s saturday. and tomorrow being sunday will be the first of the three days. then there’s monday. then tuesday. then WINTER VACATION. holla!

so for christmas, my friend SHVENEE gave me those ferrero rocher chocolates (3 by 4) as a christmas present and they were super good. i gave most of them to other people though. ahh, how i love chocolate. so, in return, i’m going to give her a pouch that i knitted! and i’m giving the same thing to others. as well as candy canes, i suppose.

anywho, i have to take SAT prep classes at HALVAN, and i found out that CURLS was in my class! and it’s weird too, because she’s supposed to be taking them in january but her mom wants her to take the SATs countless times. the class ends in march, lol. and they’re twice a month. on a saturday. this means that i have to cut my theory lessons often i also had to miss my winter concert which was today. i could’ve sung pretty songs! D;

so for winter vacation, my family and i are supposed to go upstate for three days to ski. should be fun. haven’t skiied in a while though. not since a few years ago when SNEEZE took me upstate with her dad on a ski trip. that was quite fun.

i haven’t started my homework yet. i don’t want to. until the very very end of tomorrow! and omg, yesterday…my math teacher wasn’t here. and she didn’t leave any work for us to do either. it was super amazing. as well as the day being friday. yayyyyyyy

alright, since it’s like almost four am, i should get to bed. even though i slept for like three hours before. i was mad tired. i was literally falling asleep standing up in a pet store when my mom was shopping for my dog, haha.

oh and i hugged some snow after SAT prep class. some got into one of my earphones. now it’s busted. and it works on and off. + lotsa scratchinessisms. = not good.

aiiiiiiight, time to go to bed  hahahaaaa. nightzzzzz

oh yeah, and tonight was the rerun of JOSH BROLIN and ADELE on SNL. it was pretty entertaining. next week is the one with uh, BEN AFFLECK and DAVID COOK. i remember that one! it was the one before halloween, i think. can’t remember, haha.

gblz!

i should be studying for us history. why am i not studying for us history?!?! i fail. December 19, 2008

so, instead of studying for my us history DBQ essay test tomorrow, i’ve decided to send a survey to CURLS and SNEEZE. here it is:

Say one nice thing about the person you dislike the most?: he’s entertaining.
Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?: eyes…!!!
Something you’re looking forward to in the next month?: uhm. like, nothing. or maybe that junior year is half over
Last person you gave up on?: don’t think it went over so well.
When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?: let them go. i guess i eventually try to catch up once in a while, but they’re gone.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?: not often. i run my mouth a lot though sometimes not on certain topics.
Is it hard leaving people behind?: depends.
Who was the last missed call?: zoe, but it was so i could get her number.
Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?: ahahaha, no xD
Do you tend to fall for players/hoes?: uhh, no?
Are you mean?: i guess i can be, sometimes.  but i always feel bad D; so i try not to be! doesn’t work out, lol.
Is it cute when boys/girls kiss on the forehead?: uhh, not really.
Would you rather stay at other peoples’ houses or have them stay at yours?: stay at other peoples’ houses.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?: haha, it’s quite simple. (it’s called single, darling).
Do you remember the last person you were in a car with other then family?: uh, the driver? (i think it was a taxi or something) i can’t remember, lol.
Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?: ahha sure.
Is there someone you’d like to fix things with?: eh, no.
What kind of mood are you in?: a chlorinated one. (speaking of which, i still need to shower and it’s been like, three hours since i got home. oopsie. )
What do you want right now?: excellent SAT scores, and a college far far away from USA.
Think of the last time someone stayed at your house, where is that person?: uh, at their house? iuno.  maybe at work, though she got laid off…???
Who was the last thing/person you took a picture with?: mariaisabel’s thing.
What are you doing tomorrow?: school. guitar lessons. sleeep.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?: nope.
Name something you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?: angry rawr’ish fighting.
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?: nope. yay!
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?: left shoulderblade. rat.
Is the last person you kissed mad at you?: i don’t think so.
Are you cheating on someone right now?: nope.
Would you ever get a tattoo?: maybe!
How many peircings do you want/have?: i have zero. i want one.
Just how many people do you have a thing for right now?: one.
If you took a drug test would you pass it?: ;D
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?: ha! relationships fail for me.
What are you listening too?: young folks by peter bjorn and john.
Day been rough?: it was alright. just mad that i fell asleep during all of us history.
Do you dye your hair?: once in a while.
Do you plan on going to college?: hahahaha…sure?
When was the last time you were sick?: september’ish/october.
Let’s be honest; have you ever been played by someone?: yep!
When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?: i suppose.
What woke you up this morning?: katherine calling my name.
Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?: myself! i don’t know, lol.
Can you read other peoples expressions?: nope.
What’s something that bothers you about girls?: i don’t have anything against girls.
Is something bothering you right now?: the fact that i should be studying for us history right now, but i’m not. psats. and everything else.
Would you go back in time to change something?: yes.  i would go get a slice of pizza.
What are you excited for?: WINTER BREAK. seriously.
At the moment are you cold?: i think my feet are.
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?: cold weather.
Do you currently have a hickey ..?: nope, lolol.
Do you have a bad habit?: cracking knuckles. cracking everything that can be cracked, honestly. haha, cracking is a funny word. oh and sleeping a lot.
Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they mean it?: my parents? i hope so, lol.
How’s your heart lately?: joyous.
What was the last thing you spent your money on?: i haven’t spent money in a long long time. (almost two weeks ago. who’s proud of me?) but i believe it was a frappucino.
What do you want?: pizza. and good grades.

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?: definitely.

Could you go a month without cursing?: probably.

Have you ever slept in someone else’s bed?: yep.

so, yeah i was bored. but now i realize all the shit i’ve got to do. so to it straightaway i am. farewell. i also have an italian project due after break rawr.